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So I'm finding, like, the older I get, the more I think about, like, the temporary, temporary nature of things. Like, I'm about to turn 51 and, you know,
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I just think, like, I don't know how much time I have left. And like, do I have time to accomplish all the things that I want to accomplish? I feel like
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I do, but I mean, obviously, obviously, nobody knows how much time you have. Like, I could have easily not have made it this far, so who knows? But
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like, let's just say I do have more, you know, a good amount more time. I feel like I can accomplish all my goals, but at the same time, like, this sort
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of temporary nature of things, the more I think about it, and I try to think about it on a positive way, and not like, fucking whatever the term is,
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like doom and gloom kind of thing, but like the idea that everything is temporary, you know, it's a powerful thing when it, when you, when you utilize
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it, You know, a certain way, it kind of makes you very grateful for the time that you do have. And I have some examples. I mean, like for my own personal
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goals, you know, like I started the graffiti company, Machin studio in 2015 so it's like 10 years has already gone by, and, you know, of course, you can
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always look back on things in retrospect, and I'm like, Man, if I knew what I knew now back then, like, how much further along would I be? Like, I didn't
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know anything about marketing or selling products, like, I had a business before that, but it was a service business, and it's that's a different thing. When
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you're delivering digital services, it's like the, you know, there's a lot of logistics that are just way different. And so, you know, when I think,
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like, now, now I have this knowledge, and I know what I need to do and all that kind of stuff. So, like, obviously, things will go faster, kind of
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losing my train of thought already, but I'll go back to some examples of, like, things being temporary. So like, if anybody had gone to the old
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Pedro location, you'd know that I had a lot of dogs. You know, like, I had five dogs when I was there, so anytime anybody would come in, maybe then, not the
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last year, because I wasn't there as much. But before that, like, I actually lived in the back and, like, I lived there with my dogs. So when people
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would come in, like, all the dogs would freak out, you know. And I had five of them, so it was kind of a, you know, pretty loud. And now out of those five,
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only two are still here and and so the two that are here, one of them is still really young, because somebody found her while I was at the Pedro shop, and
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they said she was really young at the time, so she's only a few years old, and she's a small dog, so it it's highly likely that she's going to be around
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for quite a while. But the other dog, she just turned 14, so like, you know, losing those other ones, the other three dogs, Hooper, HERBIE and shorty,
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you know, it's made me appreciate the time that I have, excuse me, the time that I have with her, you know, hopefully, hopefully she has a good amount
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more time, because she's a small dog, but you really never know. So like, every day I look at her and I think, like, you know, this is I don't, I don't know. I
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don't want it to sound bad, but I'm like, she's not gonna be here forever. So, like, it really makes me, like, urgent about making sure that the time
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that I have with her is good, you know. So, like, I, I try to remind myself to play with her and all these kind of things and like, and also, you know, being
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urgent about the the idea that you only have these things for a certain amount of time, makes you take care of them more, you know. So, like, I have this
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feeling that, like, if you are, like, conscious of the idea that, like, I only have this for a certain amount of time, I feel like you're gonna take care of
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that better than you would if you thought that you had forever. It's sort of like, and I was kind of thinking about that on all these levels. So
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like, this dog, for example, like, I know that she's not going to be here forever as much as I would want her to. So, like, I'm more urgent about
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making sure she has all the things that she needs, not that, I mean, like, I love dogs, so not that I wouldn't do that anyway, but it's like, like, an
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example is like I was petting her belly, and like I felt almost like a lump, like, and this probably isn't even a good thing, but I took her to the
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vet, and I was like, I was like, she's got a lump on her stomach, and you just look at it. And. Sure it's not something serious. And, like, they couldn't even
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find it, so they called me back. And, like, it was the funniest. I wish I had gotten a video, because she's kind of feisty. So, like, there was two vet
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techs kind of like, holding her so, so her her belly was up and she had this little, little muzzle on, you know, she's looking at me like, the fuck is
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going on here? And they were like, can you show me what, what, what you're seeing? And I was like, I was just pinching this little I was like, this,
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what is this? And they're like, that's just fat, you know, but you know. So maybe that's not a maybe that's not the best thing, but maybe it is, I don't really
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know, because you know, two of two of the other dogs that passed away, they both had lumps, and that contributed to them passing so But then, if you
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think about it, like in relationships too, like, You know, you never know, like, what's going to happen in a relationship. So like, for me, I
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think, like, like, I feel like I'm in this relationship forever. I mean, obviously it's not completely up to me, but I'm personally not going anywhere,
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and she doesn't seem to be too keen on going anywhere either. But, um, you know, this sort of thought process for me, it makes me not I don't know, I kind of
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hate cliches, but it makes me not sweat the small stuff. And we have, like, a really good relationship, we don't fight or anything like that. But like the
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old me would have been annoyed by things that the current me is not annoyed by, and I think it's partially because I have sort of experienced the temporary nature
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of everything you know, from loved ones to relationships to all these kinds of things. So like, the fact that I don't know, I don't want to say
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anything that sounds wrong. Because, like, you know, I don't, I don't want it to sound like I'm annoyed by anything that she does, because that's
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that's not the case. But like, the way I used to be, I used to, I used to overthink things a lot, and I would probably put meeting meaning onto things in
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the wrong way. And so it would, it would upset me, and I think I ruined relationships by being like that, you know, just being sort of unpleasant to be around,
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because I was kind of easy to to get. Put it, I was, I was pretty susceptible to being in a bad mood. And it was because I think I was overthinking things. And
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so now, every now and then something happens where, like, I I feel like I start to overthink things, and then I think, like, that's not, that's not even
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important to think about like, and just sort of, you know, I just sort of brush past it. And I don't even know if that's really related, like, the
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temporary idea of things, but I think it kind of is because, like, I hmm, back to the original thing. It's like, you just don't know how much time
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you have. Like, you don't know, you know, like, every now and then when I get pissed at one of my dogs for doing something, like, I'll be mad at them for
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like, a very brief period of time, and then I'm like, man, if, if something happens, and this is the last interaction that I have, like, that's gonna
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suck forever. So, like, I immediately, like, just be like, Alright, whatever you know. So what you took a shit on my carpet or whatever you know. And
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I, I try to, I try to snap out of it. Sometimes it's harder, you know. Sometimes I stay pissed off for for a long time. But this the idea of, like, the
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the temporary nature of of everything, it just really makes me appreciate everything that I have a lot more and the time that I have, you know, and so I
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have a great deal of things that I would like to accomplish, and I I would like to be further along than I am, but, but it's sort of like, Look, I I still
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have the time that I have, so makes me feel a little more urgent about it. And I guess sort of the problem is like, and what I'm trying to figure out,
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and partially, you know, talking this out is another sort of trying to help myself feel that urgency, because it's easy to waste time, and especially
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nowadays, like with all the distractions of of all the shit that's on the phone and social media, and everybody has access to you, and well, if you Let
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them, you know, people can call you and text you and send you DMS and all these kind of things. And then I saw a meme video where this guy was like,
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he was standing there looking at his phone laughing, and the text said, like,
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something like, you know. I was supposed to call this guy an ambulance, but when I opened it up, Instagram was on the phone, and I just started scrolling,
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and there's a guy, like, injured next to him, and I was like, fuck. Like, I mean, obviously not at that extreme, but I do that all the time where I'll be
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like, Oh, I gotta, you know, send so and so a message, or I have to, you know, pay a bill, or whatever it is, and I pick up my phone and I unlock it, and
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it's on Instagram, and then I just start looking at shit, and I'm like, fuck, what was I gonna do? I don't even know what I was gonna do. And so, like, the
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level of distraction is so high that it's so easy to waste time. And so I'm trying to get myself to think of this urgency like when I was, when I was a full
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time designer running, you know, machine, when it was a motion graphics company, if I was given a deadline, you know, let's say it was two weeks out they want
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To have the first look at a motion graphics job. I have two weeks to do it. I'm definitely not spending the whole two weeks 100% and I'm definitely not
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going to start it until, like, at the most, like three days before they're due, and most likely, they were either started the day before they were due, or
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the day they were due, like, I'd get up a little earlier and just crank it out. And the reason, well, I don't know that's like a normal thing in the design
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world, is to procrastinate. When you're given a deadline, you procrastinate all the way till the end, until you have just enough time to get it done. It's
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like, very common, but like, I'm trying to incorporate that sense of urgency that you have when you procrastinate all the way to the last minute, that urgency
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that you have right then when you start like, how do you apply that to every day. You know what I mean? I think it would be an interesting thing to be able to
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do to a certain extent, because it's kind of stressful. So you don't want to, like, completely live your life like that. But there's something about urgency
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that really snaps you into the zone, you know, like the flow state. If you're familiar with the flow state, it's like, it's very difficult to get into the
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flow state when you have a deadline, if you start really early. For me and for a lot of people, like, if I have two weeks to get something done, if
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I started the day I heard that, and I'm like, I got two weeks, I'm going to start today, I I would not feel any sense of urgency at all, and I don't
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think I would really easily be able to get into a flow state. But when I'm doing it the day before or the day of, and I'm like, I just have to get this
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done or, you know, I'm going to piss off my client, and I don't, I don't miss deadlines, you know. So there's just a certain kind of magic that happens in
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that time when things are just very, very urgent. So I'm trying to, I'm trying to figure out how to sort of harness that energy into sort of every day. So when
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I wake up in the morning and I have my power list and I have all these things I need to do, you know. And one of those things you know, today was to do
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a workout. But I didn't feel any urgency at all. Like I was, like, I don't have to be at the shop until later this afternoon, so like, I'll get the workout
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done at some point. But eventually I talked myself into doing it. And then I have other items on my power list, you know, and it's five o'clock
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right now, and this is one of them, and I have some other things I need to finish, and then I have some shit I have to get to at night. So now I'm
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feeling the urgency to get all these tasks done. So how do you add how do you, how do you, how do you do that when there isn't a deadline. That's maybe, if
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you're watching this on YouTube, and you watched all the way to this point, I would love to hear your feedback. Are you able to to get this sense of urgency,
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especially for young people? Like, if you feel like you have all the time in the world, but as we know, like, you don't know that. Like, like, when I started
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this podcast with cub, I did not think that I would be doing these solo. Like, he was a super healthy guy. He was super positive. Like I didn't think, I
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didn't think he would be gone right now. But here we are, you know, like we only got, I don't know, nine months with him on this, on this show. So I wish I
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had that urgency, you know, because we could have got a lot more episodes out. So I'm trying to figure out how to incorporate that, incorporate that. So I'm
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gonna, I'm gonna work on it and try to figure it out. Then maybe I'll record the. Other one, but if you want to leave me some feedback, you know, go on the
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YouTube channel bus MSK and leave a comment on this video, or you can always send me an email, bus@machinestudio.com or DM me on Instagram at bus 166
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love to hear from you, and I hope this was helpful. I'll see you next time.
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